Yes, I was drunk.

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I miss you <3

Cheri’e Fitzgerald

Early birthday present for my boyfriend. Obviously mine says I love you And his says I know. :) Channeling some Star Wars.

Gooood morning. 😏😋😁

I’m in an off mood tonight.

Is it sad how much I miss him eve though I just saw him last night?

This is my little sister and I. We get bored.

Ayyooo bitches I whacked my hair off.

So one of my grandmas (I have 8 including my boyfriends two grandmothers) went to breakfast with my mother and I today and I showed her this gorgeous tattooed female modeling a blue polka dot pin up style dress that I wanted.
And she goes “her tattoos ruin everything.”
So I lifted up my sleeve to remind her that I also have tattoos and plan to get more and said “uh how do you think that makes me feel? Like seriously that makes me feel like crap grandma.”
And she goes “I know how it makes you feel.”
“Well I plan on getting a LOT more.”
“You’re too pretty to have ANY tattoos.”
“So you think I’ll be less beautiful if I get more tattoos?”
“That’s exactly what I think.”

And I literally just sat there and stared her trying my damnedest NOT to cry. My mom had to break the silence by saying “baby girl you are beautiful always, no matter what. Mom STOP it.”

Like WOW fucking THANK YOU grandma for making me feel like I had to claw my skin off. It’s nice to know what you really think of me.

Cheri’e Fitzgerald

I need to get a super good paying job and get an apartment with Tyler soon because hearing my mom and her girlfriend scream and yell at each other almost every fucking morning/day/night is starting to kill me. 

Because I have to stay out of it from now on. I can only give my mom the advice she asks me for so many times and watch her not take it and go through the same shit every day.

I shouldn’t have to be depressed for her because she’s making bad choices right? Especially because she doesn’t do anything to make it better?  Especially because she would have let that woman beat the shit out of me with a metal bat two years ago and still hasn’t seemed to grasp a maternal instinct… 

I’m allowed to leave a toxic environment even if that means leaving my mom there to sort out her own demons….

…….right?

I like hats obvs

Fezzes are cool.

Imma sailor!

My love 😍💚